Crossing Over

Posted On March 10, 2022

Alone

I sink deeper, further – into the sea

The sea of aloneness – there’s no one but me

It’s dark here, and deep, and I cannot breathe

The darkness is filling my lungs as it seethes

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I struggle to open my eyes as I feel

That all I believed in has never been real

I cry out for help but it’s too dark to see

Father, where are you? Have you hidden from me?

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I need you, I want you, I long for your face

As I struggle I see it’s a terrible race

To cross from the darkness and into the light

It’s a battle my heart is unable to fight.

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Where can I find you? Where have you gone?

Far away I can hear your whispered song

Struggling, my heart stills, I listen to the tune

And I see your face like the pale white moon

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Ashamed

Where can I find you? Where have you gone?

Perhaps, perhaps you were here all along…

Your voice is quiet, like a whispered word

Like a gentle river, like a hummingbird

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I try to hear it, your beautiful Spirit…

Sometimes I fear it – but I want to be near it

I listen to you, Father, and I want to be new

I want to be cleansed – Daddy, I need you.

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Who here can comfort me? Who here can know?

Can anyone love me? I want it so.

I bow my head, Father, and stare at the ground

I can’t look at you. I don’t make a sound.

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My heart is so heavy and I know I should die

Rather than sit here before you as morning draws nigh

I love you so much but it’s so hard to see

I’m aching to know you – but it terrifies me.

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Unburdened

I can’t stay here, I can’t, I know it is so

I shuffle away – but I don’t want to go

My breath seizes my throat – and your hand cups my chin

You say “look at me, love”  – and then – and then –

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You hold me close with my head on your chest

And you tell me to lay down my burdens and rest.

“Rest, love,” you say, and the look in your eyes

strikes a chord in my heart – I cannot deny

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You say to me, “You have always been known.

You’ve always been mine and you were never alone.

I call you my child, and thus it is so.

Never forget what you came here to know.”

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I’m too heavy to speak – oh your Presence is strong

It’s like a revelation that I knew all along.

I drop my boulders – down, down on the ground

I hurl them in the ocean – and then hear a sound

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Beloved

It’s a beautiful murmur, a whisper, a sigh

Like a baby’s first breath breathed as morning draws nigh

It enfolds me, hides me, holds me and sings

As I at last find rest in the shadow of your wings

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You call me your child – I’ll believe it is true

I’ll hold onto the knowledge and I’ll cling now to you

I’ve made a crossing – and oh, now I know

You call me your child – and thus it is so.

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© LadyBluebird 2022