Some Tea, Some Books, and Friendships to Hold Onto

I’ve been blessed in my life with really good friendships. I’ve never been the sort of person who has scads of friends, always making new ones and never growing close to any of them. Instead, I have a small, intimate group of friends that I am always getting to know more and more. I love to be a good friend. It makes me so happy when I am called ‘a great friend’ by the people I know. That’s one of the things I love.

I’ve been thinking a lot about friendship lately. This past year has made me reassess my entire life, basically. Sundays have felt difficult, not going to church and being with people who love God. It’s hard to feel alone. I feel like God is showing me how He is a good friend, so that I will be able to be a good friend. And you know, when God is your friend, you can’t go wrong!

I think community is really important. We were designed for relationships with people, and God. Like I said in one of my other posts, I feel like God just wants to have a relationship with me! I think it’s really important to him. More important than me going through motions, doing what I feel like I’m supposed to and never really meaning any of it. The little moments are sometimes the best, I’ve realized. The times when my heart was broken and I sat on the floor and sobbed and cried out to God. The moments when a sudden, startling joy gripped me and I spontaneously thanked God. God gets it. He’s my friend, that’s what friends do!

I really want to get better about being intentional with my relationships. I want to set aside time for God, and my friends and my family. I don’t know how I’ll do it, but hey, God is patient. I need to hold onto the friends I have, because they are precious and rare. I am so grateful for my friends!

One of the ways that I feel like I connect to God is through my writing. It may sound strange, because I’ve never heard anyone say that before, but for me it’s true. It’s when I’m sitting alone at a computer with a blank page and my mind full of big thoughts and dreams that I feel God’s pleasure, I feel that He is happy to just sit and watch me write. It’s funny, the small moments that I feel loved the most.

You know, there’s a balance between being alone and with people, but in both settings, God can be with me. I can feel Him in my friend’s smile, or in a blank page. With a pen or with a person. Even when I’m sitting in my mega beanbag with a cup of tea and an unread book.

Well, that’s all I have to say just now. Have a great day, everyone!